im back with him.

cant be anymore straight foward than that.

I know there are a few of my friends who do not agree with my decision. *though i really dont noe who to be exact*

I assume they would probably say something like 'hes an idiot. he doesnt deserve this.'

Anyway..i want to give my reasons. To show you why.

He tells me he'll never hurt me again.

*its hard to gain back my trust for him. But i'll take the risk. Besides, life itself is a risk.*

I'm the type of person who give 'idiots' a second chance.

*For me, the second chance is the last chance. He totally screwed everything up the first time, but since he is willing to love me as he did a long time ago, im fine with that. There will be no more chances after this one. No matter what. Or else i'll be the biggest idiot in the world.*

Being sad all the time isnt healthy. Especially for a person like me dont you think?

*Maybe its time for me to be happy again...i hate being emo all the time. Who likes being emo anyway..its so...depressing-ish. I wanna be my old self again..smiling and laughing everyday..being happy go lucky.*

PS to a special someone who owns mr. post it : im sorry. hatred and jealousy wins this time.

Dont ask me.

or else.

JUMPER.

'There...its where ppl jump very high oneee'

NO kevin. They're teleporting!! xD

Kevin, zet, danil, ryan and i watched jumper yesterday. Kevin was the organiser *surprised?*

The story line is ok-only. The coolest thing about the movie is just the way the guy teleports.

Thats all =S

"When was the last time you had fun? REAL fun?"

Got that from the tv when i was flipping through almost every channel.

The first thing that came into my mind was pangkor.

Then i was like...everyone wasnt there so its not really counted =S

hmmm how bout the hang outs? no..not the answer either..cuz no matter how many hang outs we have..it still cant beat the days when we had school.

thats it! 'the days when we had school' !

That should sum it up =)

Any other opinions anyone? =)

-...........-

my right eye is infected.

I have pharyngitis aka throat infection.

its like..every time i swallow..my throat hurts like hell >..<

Now i have to wear my shades. So i wont rub my eyes or anything cuz its contagious.

No wonder Mr. Yow was wearing his sunnis during form2. I thought its just bcuz he didnt want other ppl to see his infected eye xP

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LI SHAN :D

i conducted a 'research' on my own dreams on the number of times i dreamt of the similiar stuffs from january 7th 2006 to 17th febuary 2008. Many dreams were lost as they weren't recorded cuz i was too lazy xD now im regretting for not writing every single detail in each dream i had.

i'll only list out the stuff which i dreamt about for 5 times onwards.

Here are the results!

61 Ryan xD

16 Ruyee

13 Dad

11 Zetty

10 Taking pictures
Malls

9 School
Hotels
Mum
Evil stuff eg. demons, ghosts

8 Danil
Aliens

6 Chiang
Jade
Teddy xD
Beach
Books

5 Li Shan
Alvin
Darrel
Khye-Ren
Moon
Gem stones
Stars

Its also kinda weird that i dream of things in pairs such as :

1. Giant poisonous snakes

2. Sharks

3. Crows

4. Red gems

5. Sunbirds

6. Terrapins

7. Sea serpent's head

PS dont blame me that i did not dream enough of you !!! xD

i just realised something

o..o

spm results will be released in march.

which is like..NEXT MONTH

T..T

*panic panic paniccccccccc*

i used to know what was the meaning of happiness inside out.

until

finally my internet's fixed !!!

hmm watching alot of bleach lol. episode 105 i think.

valentine's day was just a bore.

nothing exciting *in a good way* happening around me.

if only =S

My sense of

taste

touch

hearing

sight

smell.

My dreams

time

Muffled.

Ever since

Once upon *another* dream...

There was a lil boy.

One night, he noticed the bright moon in the night sky. The brightest star in the sky was always there. But he never noticed that it shone so bright for him as he was dazzled by the moon.

It was the night of a new moon. The lil boy never felt so alone. He didnt notice the brightest star was shining for him all the time.

By the time he noticed the star, the star died.

He screamed at the star. he wanted the star to shine again. He was sorry that he didnt notice the star before.

But it was too late.

The star coudlnt hear his pleads although it knew very well the lil boy wanted her to shine.

The star was glad that she was in space - where sound doesn't exist.

Numb in the cold vast space. Alone.

It wouldn't feel the same way if the star shone again.

wheeee ~ ^^

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

My last chinese new year i'll be having here....sigh.

1. My grandparents' place. All my lil cousins..except brandon hahaha..he has grown.

Hmm that statement just made me feel old xD

2. Went to aunt's place for lunch. No cousins zzzzz

3. Another aunt's place hahaa. The best part wuz when i wuz with all my cousins ^^ had so much fun playing with my aunt's cat heeee.

Played black jack *without money*. okay la....

4. Family friend's place. I gambled for the first time xD sad huh? its the game with 3 cards.

I won 3 'snowballs' which had a total of around 28 bucks!!! i 'earned' like..13 bucks yayyy :D

5. Home sweet home :)

nothing much to update about alvin haha.

Im still numb.

Numb with pain.

i dont know what im doing.

im standing still.

Watching everything evolve around me

As im in the middle of all turmoil.

Pressured.

Lost.

Wishing that this is just a bad nightmare. A really REALLY bad one.

I want a clone to replace me. To make her decision.

After she has decided, i'll just live through the life she has chosen for me.

But as my sis said :" why do you ask other ppl's opinion? why cant you just think for yourself?"

I truly dont know the answer to that one. But..somehow i just..i duno..argh.

I've been hurt so many times..the wounds just never seem to close. They do not even become scars.

They remain there..fresh. Bleeding.

i hate being emo about love. It sux.

i just found this. heh. missing the old times.

EVERYTIME WE TOUCH

I still hear your voice,

when you sleep next to me.

I still feel your touch in my dreams.

Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why

Without you it's hard to survive.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.

And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.

Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.

Need you by my side.

Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.

And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.

Can't you hear my heart beat so...I can't let you go.

Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.

They wipe away tears that I cry.

The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.

You make me rise when I fall.

when you're not around..im as dull as a dying star.

all i have in my head now is a puddle. Ngah.

oyeah..i watched meet the spartans last weekend. its a MUST watch ;D