where should i start.

I met my friend who came back from aus the other day. She seemed so so happy and she had genuine laughter. A thought suddenly came across my mind : I was once so happy like her..where did all my laughter go?

Was it because i stayed at home for too long till my laughing machine became rusty?
Or was it the fact that i was hurt deeply in the heart till..?

Whatever the answer is..it wont bring back my super laughter machine to life anyway..

I also noticed that i recently became quiet. Recently as in since february or something. Or was i like that all the time? I'm not too sure.

This is not me. I'm supposed to be the happiest person..i thought i was..until i met my friend..no i am not jealous of her laughing machine..i just wanna be the way i used to be..happy inside out.