Rant of the past

If there's anything other than school to think about right now..there is almost none.

My mind's clouded with academic stuff..and being sick is not really helping.

I've been forgetting birthdays, rejecting events, and my social butterfly-ness is slowly deteriorating.

I guess there is one thing I do think about - what am I going to eat next.

Surprisingly I have a very demanding stomach, and I often crave for certain foods.

And I think cooking is very therapeutic..it's is a type of meditation. In fact, meditation isn't that mental image of a person sitting on the ground with legs crossed with hands resting on the knees. It could be anything really..as long as you put your mind to it. Be mindful when you wash the dishes, walk to school, reading, take a shower etc.

I'm not sure whether mindful studying/working is counted as meditation though.

I used to believe that each semi-precious stone had unique healing properties (eg. wearing a stone around the neck, hands, fingers, feet, or throat heal different parts of your soul because of the placements of body chakras). I even had an amethyst under my pillow, to enhance my ability to dream. A dictionary for these stones and their properties lay close by..

But now it's all very different. I think that wearing the stones (whether it works or not in reality) only gives you certainty..or maybe hope. Like how the rose quartz will attract love, amethyst balances out your mood (and that it's good to wear it with rose quartz), lapis lazuli stimulates creativity..the list goes on.

As if that isn't enough, the shape of the stone matters, whether it be tumbled, pointed, a sphere, cubic, pyramidal..

In the end I just thought it was all a mind game. If you strongly believe that a stone will guard you against psychic attacks, then it will!

Even when I don't believe in the powers of semi-precious stones anymore, I miss my rocks very much :(